Christmas Makes Me Itch

I'm freaking out about Christmas. I'm down to the wire and haven't shopped for ANYone's present...

And my family is freaking expensive to shop for.

Granted, we all have exquisite taste in the things we have and look for, but good lord. I asked my sister what she wanted from me for Christmas-- mind you, I'm not paying rent or actually supporting myself because I'm mooching off my mom. And the first and only thing she can think of is a Fossil purse from Macy's. Let's look at the dollar signs.

This little bugger-- the only Fossil bag I actually like and think she would like as well... $188. What the hell? I wasn't getting things like this until I left for college. She's SIXTEEN-- what celebrity-esque fashion statement could she possibly be making with a Fossil bag?

And my mom.. Is expensive. Usually the newest Coach bag is on her list or massage packages or vacations... I don't have it like that this year. In fact, I still don't even have a paycheck (my job fucked up on my payroll and deposited money into a different account) and my mom is buying me pizza and putting money in my account.

I am officially a bum. Or what I like to call "for real starving artist".

But I'm getting out of my rut and finally accepting that I am here and I am broke but I'm still fabulous and no one or town can take that. Ever.

So my sister can get her bag from Ebay or that purse exchange. I'm calling in a favor at Vida to get my mom pampered and primped like the queen she is. And I'm getting myself this internship with Ky so that I can finally do something that I believe in. I'm getting my dreams back. Slowly. And I'm cashing in whatever Karma points I've collected this year.

I'm getting my life back. Thank you Santa.

I'm also struggling with what to get my friends and girlfriend. There are only a couple of people I'm willing to actually shop for... And that's getting hard for me too. My friend Kira has been an essential asset in making me feel better about... Life in general. So I wanted to get her something special to say hey you were awesome thanks for being a good friend... Buuuut considering the only things I've picked up along our very brief road to friendship is that she loves the color pink, has a Tinkerbell tattoo, and loves amazing music... I'm stuck. I don't want to get her something she already has... Maybe a day of shopping in Chicago will suffice?

My girlfriend reads this. Enough said.

Anyway, I should commence with my online shopping and pray for an adequate gift for everyone who I've had the privilege to know and love this year.

Dear Christmas, be over so that I can start anew in 2010. Thanks.